So today I did a thing. It may seem like a simple thing. But it was harder then it looks. See I’m not a fan of taking down pictures. And my fridge was full of them. So many they even overlapped. From dating, to engaged to, married….pregnant and then us as a family with the
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Take The Picture
Ok so this is Tony yesterday and Logan two years ago. Tony isn’t wearing Logans outfit. I just happen to buy this in newborn where I had it for Logan at one. But it’s too cute to look at the pics side to side. also let’s me know that next year Tony will have this
This Weeks Frustration
We had Tony’s one month appointment scheduled for today. I even got the confirmation on Friday. But I missed the call this morning saying the appointment needed to be rescheduled. The doctor couldn’t come in today. So I got us out of the house for no reason. We have to go back tomorrow. I had
Tony is a Month!
One month ago today this little man came into our world. His one month appointment is Monday so I don’t have the stats on how much he had grown yet. I can say he has been cluster feeding off and on the last week. He is up to drinking about 2.5oz of mama milk. Like
Thanksgiving 2020
Happy Thanksgiving! ??? Days like today have mixed emotions. This was Stephens favorite day of the year. And I think a part if me will always hold that close. Later tonight Jonathan and I will watch Planes, Trains and Automobiles. This is a tradition I want to keep. The other side if the coin is
Always His Mama
Two years and a half years and three days ago sounds like a long time. But it also can feel like yesterday. It’s amazing how such a normal day can change so quickly. How the next day you can find everything in your world changed. Me and this little man have had a lot of
Middle of the Night
Waking up in the middle of the night to nurse and pump may be one of the most exhausting parts of this time with a baby. But at the same time it is one of my favorite parts. At least when everyone is sleeping. Tony woke up enough to nurse and then started a dream
What This Picture Means To Me
To most this picture is just a sweet picture with a mom and two of her kids. To me it is so much more. It is a picture of something I truly never thought I would have. For so long I didn’t think I would ever be able to have any children. Then after trying
Finding the Value
I haven’t really written in the blog in the last week and a half. I’ve been adjusting to having a new baby. It’s been a wonderful adjustment. I should be asleep right now. But I’m not. Tony woke up and needed a change and to nurse. I was more than happy to do so. This
The Holiday Season is Here
Waking into the holiday season. This can be so hard for most of the widowed community. And time doesn’t change that. In fact for many wids time is the enemy. Time just showed us how long it has been. As I walk into this season it will be the 3rd without Stephen. It’s so bizarre