There is no way days like today can come and go without mixed emotions. And I have learned that that is ok.
Stephen you surprised me. I mean I knew you would make a good dad. But I had no idea how much. From the moment Logan was born you changed. You had such light in your eyes. Logan was everything to you. And everyone could see it. You and Logan adored each other. I already loved you. Was already in love with you. But seeing you become a dad deepened that love. You were one of the most hands on dads ever. Always wanting to be with your little mini me. You two had such a great bond. It didn’t even bother me that Logan preferred you. It made me smile. You would come home from work and right away ask where Logan was. Even before saying hi to me lol. He was your everything. We didn’t know how short of a time you had. And that will never not make me sad. You were robbed of even seeing your first Father’s Day. And I think that is part of what makes this day so sad for me. I want you to know Logan and I are doing good. We have figured out how to move forward in life. We have found happiness. I hope you are watching over us still. Logan is so much like you and gets more like you every day. Jonathan will comment on something Logan does and say “where did he get that” and the answer is almost alway that it’s something you would do. He is even getting your same birth mark on his back. I just noticed it recently. It wasn’t there before. But it’s right in the same spot as yours. It made me smile and have happy tears. He is such your little man. I promise I am keeping your memory alive for our son. He will know who you are and we will always honor your memory. Thank you for being such a great dad while you were here. For instilling love and happiness into our son. For leaving behind a piece of you that I get to hold onto. Happy Father’s Day in heaven.
-TWM
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