Someone can’t sleep. Logan started sleeping through the night at two months old. There has really only been a handful of times where Logan would wake at night. And it was always after Stephen got home from work. I would go to get Logan from his bed and by the time I got back in the living room Stephen would have a bottle on the warmer and be sitting with the boppy pillow ready for me to hand over the baby. He would say things like “red rover, red rover, send BooBoo on over!” He would give Logan a bottle while I pumped and then I would get to go to sleep. Stephen always put him back to bed. Stephen worked a lot. So they didn’t get too much time together. So any time Stephen could get his arms on Logan he did. Logan has been crying at night. And waking. My personal option is that he misses his daddy. I think he is looking for his daddy at night as they had time then. And tonight it’s ok. I’m so tired. But my brain will not stop spinning. So I’m awake anyway. So we get to our new normal. A sad heart crushing new normal. Now when Logan is awake at night I will be the one to feed him. I will never be able to replace his daddy and how much his daddy loved him. But I can do my best to try. #claylo #claylojr #aslongbabies #babybumblebeelong #newnormal